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  Sitting on the train, keeping a 1.5m social distancing from other passengers, looking outside to see scenery views passing by rapidly, everything feels calm and quiet. This is what I secretly like. Deep down.           In my 20-year-plus life, I'm being labeled as an ‘extrovert’, ‘crazy bitch’, daredevil and annoying LOUD chick.           Those bewildering moments have been locked into my deepest side of memories ever since I step my foot into adulthood. Those memories start to fade away and all it's left is some tiny bits of here and there. It was as if the time you thought you forgot to brush your teeth and you went to re-brush it for the second time within 2 hours. I don't even know whether I could trust my own memories or not! But it doesn’t mean you can’t do those adrenaline-rushing things anymore. You have to create your own crazy version of healthy adult life now! Let me tell you: when you start to like e...

Recently I have been obsessed about this 2018 Thai TV-series. “Girl from nowhere” plots around a girl named Nanno, who transfers to different schools and exposes everyone’s dark secrets behind the facet of the 'innocent' education institution. Inspired by true story, this series really gives me all the feels and senses in brain! Nanno from Nowhere               To me, Nanno is the representation of our inner darkest side. According to  Bangkokpost , she is described as the daughter of Satan or the snake from the Garden of Eden who comes to Earth to give forbidden fruit to humans. In each episode, she shows up at different school to test and reveal  how evil humans can be .             When I was watching it, I was horrified and scared of the depiction of this character. Not the kind of standard horrifying scared scenes from the sudden appearance of ghost or bloodlust monster...

December: that time of the year to reflect yourself. This might sound too overrated but never it is when it comes to gratitude and loving yourself and the people around you.             I still remember back when I was still at school (now, I am almost out of university), December is the most anticipated month because it’s holiday! It means more time to play, do useless stuff just to waste time. Ahhhh, those are good ol' days. Plus, just fooling around in the house with literally nothing -okay, maybe some used papers, blunt pencils, or faded coloring-  is enough to satisfy the mini-Vivian. I still recalled I used to make all those origamis in star-shaped, animals, and weird out-of-the-world patterns.             Around this time of the year, in 2020, with smartphones, tablets and video consoles at hands, those good ol' times just seem to be put away in the memories of m...

  Today, 14/11/2020, when I’m literally writing this, I received 6 packages delivered to my doorstep – or rather gate step. 6 PACKAGES!!! TOTALLY SIX DELIVERYS CAME INTO MY HOME! Oh god! I have no idea how this 11.11 sales has got into my mom’s shopping carts that my front step is literally bombarded by the horns non-stop with my neighbors coming out to take a glance.           This year the ecommerce market has definitely gone wild and crazy. The revenues for every platform like Lazada, Shopee, Taobao etc must be laughing some way that they earned a whole lot of money from this 11.11 festive alone.           Okay. I got that we all have this lipstick effect or revengeful shopping spree going on now. Everyone who plans to go on vacations or holidays overseas is doomed to stay at their hometown since COVID19 messes our schedules up. So why not buy something to “compensate” myself for not be...

  When was the last time you happily sang in the shower with no rush ? When was the last time you played innocently like a kid with no phone and no internet? When was the last time you stood up for the right things even though all the others were against you – not affected by mass pressure? When was the last time you dreamt about unicorns, rainbows and fantasies instead of having insomnia worrying about your life? When was the last time you looked inside the mirror and thought you were the most beautiful person ever in this earth and not worried about your appearances? . .           Last time, last time, when is it this time?           If not now, when? If not then, why? If not ever, how? . . Time to unclutter your inner soul like how you organize your stuffs in the room. Throw away unused emotions like how fast you threw your ex’s stuffs without a second thought. ...

  I had cried for more than 3 times, if I'm not wrong, for this single week. It doesn't necessarily mean the big devastating, sky-wrecking cries; it can include the tears dropping or tears swiveling around the eyes. It's okay 😢            This week should be a happy week for me since my birthday fell under this week. But unexpectedly (or, expectedly, for someone that knows me well), I had dropped my tears for multiple times. Of course, there were reasons behind. It's not like I cried for no reason.            I found out that I was quite (or, maybe REALLY) emotional person. If you have seen my emotional side, it does not mean anything. It is just simply that I am easily touched by A LOT of things and incidents.           People may call me 'oversensitive', 'overreact' or a 'CryBaby'. It may sound like an insult to anyone, but not me. At least, I wouldn't feel shameful to admit. 'Yes...

Being a perfectionist Virgo ♍ ︎ can be difficult in life when you face those dumbheads that always can’t do their jobs right (in my case, assignments and team projects) and all you can do is just to help them to wipe their ass, fixing their problems. How could you deal with that? Nonetheless, the way you approach to help them is very important to let them know that they could be better next time and learn how to view it as a lesson themselves, by doing it nicely instead of blatantly pushing them without boundaries .           Instead of hitting around the bushes - or cars since greenery rarely seen in urbanized cities anymore, then just boom and crash with light and care ;)  Talk directly in a nice and kindly way to them. Let them know how serious or sever the issue is if they do not complete the task by certain time periods. Approach to provide assistance or aids to them even when they do not ask for it. Key note: do it with kindness ...

Introvert or extrovert ? This might be the question that you get asked a lot in some days. I used to answer confidently that I AM EXTROVERT! I am somewhat that crazy bitch , loving the attention people given to me and not embarrassed being the quirky among the gang. But I don’t know why. If you ask me right now, I might say I actually am an Introvert. You must be wondering: Vivian, you must be fucking kidding me. If you are introvert, then no one in this world is a freaking human! I kid you not. I love to be active when there are people around me. We have fun. We have joy. We have shit. That’s like life. Just life. It is probably during the COVID-19 period , I somehow become introvert after getting ‘locked’ inside the dormitory in my university. I think there must be A LOT of people out there, agreeing me. Everyone looking at his must be nodding their head and say, “YOU ARE GODDARN RIGHT, BRUH!”. But fret you not, that is okay. Truth to say I think everyone has different side of ...

Recently, I have come across an article about how mental exercise is as much important as physical exercise. It can give you an out-of-the-world satisfaction. There are 13 ways briefly mentioned in the article to practice the mental strength that I have found some of them reciprocates the same with me surprisingly : love a good challenge , focus on what is in control , venture out of comfort zone, have true confidence, embrace change , no fear no regret, and crave for feedback and criticism.        It is always mindset over anything. You believe something and then your subconscious will be more willingly to do that something, instead of carrying that notion without any action. People surrounding me always perceive me as a very confident person and I have a smarties-ass look on my face. My English can be viewed as quite good by my friends and my family, but people do not realize what I have done behind the ‘success’ of it. Actually, I take a lot of efforts for 10...

LOVE is a very simple and straightforward word, yet people struggle to live by its means . We could easily say out ‘I love you’, but do we really mean it? Do you really “act” on the LOVE, or just merely speaking it because it’s  convenient or follow what people are saying only? Does your behaviour and attitude justify that you truly put your heart on me, or is it just some blanket statement as useless as that piles of face masks abandoned on the roadside? In recent days, there have been a lot of “eventful” happenings around the world. First, the global George Floyd horrible homicide by brutal police force; next, our former Miss Universe Malaysia’s mindless, insensitive comment about this incident; then, the sudden spikes of horrendous drink-driving accidents going around in Malaysia. More and more negativity and selfishness spread around even faster than the pandemic nowadays. It is awful and downright disgusting. We all live in a big community that emphasizes strong inter...