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Resolution is USELESS


I have set up the grandeur 2020 resolution yet this whole week shows how fucking weak and useless my self-discipline control of myself. I had literally done anything, but the manila card-based resolution put in front of my desk.
Exercise. My daily set-up routine for my body fit-up was a complete first disaster that led me to my “bed potato” lifestyle. I had watched a full movie/drama/Youtube short video right in my comfort zone. Ridiculously wasting my time on some soup opera shows and hopeless rom-com.
5am clock. Waking up early is and always will be that complete impossible thing to do for me. People say successful people wake up early like 5am, so that they can organise their stuff and get important things done by 11am and spend the rest of them to upskill themselves and improve their skills. Whereas, a 1130am class for me had already been a difficult challenge for me to go on time.
Savings. I put GaryVee picture all around my resolution so that I can fucking look at his face and know that I HAVE TO WORK HARD AND SAVE MONEY. Darn, that was extraordinarily hard especially for someone like me who has FOMO symptom and has difficulty to say NO And do not how to reject people in any way. So just SAY YES. I know. I know. I am weak. That is properly like something a kryptonite of me. So money spent with my friends always asking me out, going here and there.
At least, reading books is still something that I constantly do without any struggle. Do I deserve an applause for that? I guess… YES!

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