Falling is so much easy. People always say falling, dropping, plummeting down is the hardest. It destroys, it tears, it humiliates, it breaks everything. Honestly, the most struggling is not about that. It's in the middle of wanting to fall but not fall. It's the hanging part that shit the pants. It's the suspense. It's the almost there but not there. It is so much tougher when standing at the end of two broken grounds…the dilemma is real. It’s head splitting and soul shattering… tearing me apart slowly…and it's so...shitty Me rn People make decision based on the majority votes, the pros and cons, the most effective one, the good or bad… What if the decision need to be made UPON yourself? It is about you… Facing dilemma between the past you and the future you is so freaking hard. The past you is so amazingly awesome, doing just fine and have everything you can dream of. Yet, deep down you know that’s not the real you. Something is missing. Something ...